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  A CURE FOR

  NIGHT

  CONTENTS

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Prologue

  Part One

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Part Two

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Part Three

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Acknowledgments

  Copyright

  To Melissa

  A CURE FOR

  NIGHT

  PROLOGUE

  THE DAY my life fell apart began like any other. Of course, it's almost impossible to pinpoint the exact instant a life changes—a million tiny events all conspire to bring us to every moment. But there can still be that day when things reach their boiling point and spill out into catastrophe.

  I was a little late getting into work that morning. The truth was, I was often late those days; it wasn't particularly uncommon for it to be after ten by the time I came strolling in. I made up for it on the back end, often working deep into the night.

  I was a midlevel associate at Walker Bentley Ferguson & Dunlop, one of New York's most prestigious law firms, and long hours came with the territory. In exchange for most of your waking hours the firm offered money, and lots of it. Still, it was easy for the associates to feel relatively poor in comparison to the corporate chieftains who made up our client base, or the partners who actually took home the firm's millions in profits.

  It wasn't the sort of life I'd been born into, nor was it anything I'd ever particularly aspired toward, but it was where I'd ended up, and I'd gotten used to it. I hadn't been looking to blow it up, at least not on any conscious level. I hadn't gone looking for Beth, either; she'd simply shown up, a new paralegal at the firm assigned to one of my cases, a sprawling accounting fraud prosecution of a high-profile company and its senior executives.

  I was spending almost all of my time on that case, plowing through the numerous tedious tasks that accompany a massive federal investigation: we were in the midst of turning over millions of pages of our client's documents to the government, every one of which first had to be reviewed. We were also conducting dozens of interviews with the company's employees, and drafting a sprawling white paper in an attempt to persuade the U.S. Attorney's office to drop the prosecution. It was the kind of case that racked up the billable hours, making the firm a lot of money, and making the lawyers who actually had to slog through it all thoroughly miserable.

  I spent the dregs of the morning and into the early afternoon writing up my notes of a recent witness interview into a memo to files. I was still working on it while picking at the remains of a sandwich from the firm's cafeteria when Beth walked into my office and sat down.

  I didn't like it when she did this. It made me nervous. Unfortunately, I'd made the mistake of letting her know, so she'd started popping in with some frequency, more to enjoy my discomfort than for anything else.

  "Why you want people to gossip about us is beyond me," I whispered. Beth did not look playful, however; her mouth was drawn tight, her skin waxy and sallow.

  "You got any candy in here?" Beth replied.

  "Seriously," I said in a normal tone of voice.

  "It's all your whispering that'll start gossip," Beth said, now speaking quietly herself. "There's nothing weird about my being in your office. People will just think you're telling me what to do."

  "As if," I said.

  "I really really need some sugar," Beth said.

  "You know where the vending machines are."

  "You don't understand," Beth said.

  Looking at her, I did understand, but I didn't want to say the words out loud, not here in my office. Beth was craving sugar only to blunt her deeper need. "It's not that I don't understand so much as it is that I can't help you."

  "I can take care of myself," Beth said. "How about you?"

  "What about me?"

  "You making it through your little day here?"

  "My little day is going just fine, thanks."

  Beth's voice again dropped to a whisper. "You coming over Friday?" she asked. I nodded.

  "It's your turn to bring the supplies," she said in her normal voice.

  "Why don't we just start wearing signs around our necks?" I said.

  "Didn't you ever read The Purloined Letter or whatever it's called?" Beth asked. "Nobody ever sees the things that are hiding in plain sight."

  Paul Frith, my closest friend at the firm and a colleague on the white-collar case, appeared in my doorway, hesitating when he saw Beth.

  "Hey, Paul," Beth said, following the greeting with a pronounced sniffle. I saw how strung out she was because I knew what to be looking for, but nevertheless I had to think it was becoming obvious to anyone who cared to look.

  Paul knew too—the only person besides me who did. He nodded at Beth in response to her greeting, glancing at her briefly, then looking away.

  "You boys probably have important business to discuss," Beth said, standing, her clothes baggy on her thin frame. "I'll be down in the library if you need me."

  I watched her go, idly remembering what it'd been like a few months ago, when she and I had first started up. It'd seemed like a bad idea at the start, but I'd had no idea how quickly it would get as bad as this. Paul closed my door, then sat down in the chair that Beth had just vacated.

  "She's not looking so great," he said.

  "I know."

  "What are you doing about it?"

  "Is there something I can do about it?"

  "How long before that's what you look like?"

  "I'm fine, Paul," I said, not asking myself whether I believed it. "Really."

  "Isn't it time you just shut it down?"

  "You don't have to worry about it," I said. "I mean, thanks, but you don't, okay?"

  "Whatever you say, pal," Paul said, but he looked defeated. I tried and failed to think of something to say that would make him feel better, move us past this.

  "So what's going on?" I said.

  "Mary wants me to get everybody together for a team meeting at four today to talk about the status of the white paper," Paul said. "Since you and I are doing the heavy lifting on it, thought I'd check with you before I made it official."

  "That's fine," I said. "That gives me a couple of hours to actually, you know, make some progress on it."

  Paul stood, still looking deeply unhappy. I could tell there was more that he wanted to say. "See you then," I added, trying to cut him off.

  Paul just looked at me for a moment, then nodded. "I'll see you, Joel."

  I spent the next couple of hours glued to my desk, typing away at the white paper, which was already more than fifty pages long. Paul was writing the facts; I was writing the law. Essentially my task was to demonstrate that case law established
that the actions taken by our client were not actually illegal. It was an uphill battle, but people didn't hire us to do the easy stuff.

  IT WAS Paul who'd told me, appearing in my office doorway shortly before our scheduled meeting. I was so focused on my work I didn't immediately notice the ashen look on his face. "I take it you haven't heard?" Paul asked flatly.

  "Heard what?"

  "They found Beth in the ladies' room down in the library about an hour ago."

  "What do you mean?" I asked, realizing as I said it that I already knew, my understanding racing ahead of my information.

  "She was getting high," Paul said, a little anger entering his voice. "Who knows how long she'd been passed out in there before somebody found her?"

  "They took her to the hospital?" I said.

  Paul was unable to meet my eyes. "Apparently she vomited after losing consciousness. The old rock-star routine. I don't know the details, and don't really want to, but she was dead on the scene."

  There was a high-pitched noise, a shrill metallic whine buzzing in my ears, loud enough to drown out everything else. I tried to imagine what my appropriate reaction to this news should be. Paul was telling me Beth was dead, which was impossible for me to understand. But Paul was also telling me that Beth had died in a way that would attract serious scrutiny, that questions would be asked, and that I myself faced enormous vulnerability.

  "Joel," Paul said. "You really need to pay attention right now."

  "I know," I said. "I am. I just don't know what to do."

  "The police are here. This is going to be a thing."

  "Do you think they'll come to me?"

  "Don't you?"

  I put my head in my hands. My emotions were so jumbled together that I couldn't tell what I felt. I was sad for Beth, of course, grief-filled and in shock, but those feelings jousted against my own raw fear. "I'm really in trouble, aren't I, Paul?" I said at last, looking up at my friend.

  "I've been trying to tell you that for a long time," Paul said.

  PART

  ONE

  1

  I SAT IN the tiny interview room, the back legs of my metal chair scraping against the brick wall behind me, waiting for my next client to walk in. A file—such as it was: a manila folder containing a badly typewritten complaint (I suspect that cops are virtually the only people left in the country who still routinely use typewriters, and they are apparently unaware of the existence of Wite-Out)—lay open on the metal table in front of me, but I hadn't bothered to do more than glance at it. I needed to have some idea of the police version of what'd happened, but there was no reason for me to have it nailed down in my head, confident from past experience that the words on the police forms would have little relation to the story I would hear when Chris Delaney walked into the room.

  I spent my working days in the criminal courthouse on Schermerhorn Street, walking distance from the Brooklyn Defenders' office on Pierrepont. I'd been handling arraignments for about six months, five days a week of working out of the aging courthouse's dark and narrow rooms across from the holding cells, conducting five-minute interviews, then heading down the hall and up to the courtroom, where my clients would enter their initial pleas. Many minor misdemeanor cases ended then and there, a plea of guilty in exchange for time served, plus maybe a small fine or community service, perhaps a treatment program if it was a first-time drug bust. These pleas meant the defendant's main punishment was the twenty-four hours or so he'd just spent locked up waiting to be brought before a judge. Even after half a year this still bothered me: the system took somebody who'd just spent a more or less sleepless night on the floor of a giant holding cell, fifty other guys in the room, the court officers feeding him maybe some bologna with a drooping slice of American cheese pressed between a couple of wilted slices of white bread, and then along came a lawyer like me, telling the exhausted, scared, and hungry defendant that the whole thing could be over by copping a plea, the main punishment the experience just endured. That and a criminal record. What tired soul wouldn't accept that deal in exchange for getting to go home, sleep in his own bed?

  There was a knock on the door. "Yeah," I called out after a second, a little thrown by the knock: many of my visitors, old hands at the game and naturally assertive to boot, didn't bother. The door opened and a young white man shuffled in. A user, no doubt about that, skin the color of dirty soap, bruise-colored puffs under both his eyes. His hair was curly and uncombed, spiraling down his face. Guy'd blow me for a fix, I thought, feeling an immediate sharp dislike for my newest client. This happened to me at least once a day, sometimes more. I had never mentioned it to another public defender, never asked if it was just part of the job, because I was afraid that it wasn't. I was afraid it was particular to me, especially with someone like Chris Delaney, a type I recognized in an instant, a type I'd narrowly escaped becoming myself, if I had indeed escaped it. He'd ended up where I'd been heading in the weeks before Beth's death. Of course, the cost had been high for me too, and a year later I was still paying.

  "Have a seat," I said, picking up the file and making a show of looking at it. "Chris Delaney," I said. "That your name?"

  The kid nodded. I put Chris's age at twenty. "I'm Joel Deveraux," I continued. "I'm with the Brooklyn Defenders'. I'll be representing you at your arraignment. Ever been busted before, Chris?" I asked.

  The kid, this Chris, shook his head. "This will be more productive if you use words to communicate with me," I said, letting some irritation show. Despite all the talk in the trade about client empowerment, how you should make your clients feel that they were in the driver's seat, in my opinion that was just issuing an open invitation to a festival of bullshit. I didn't think letting clients try out an increasingly preposterous series of variations on reality was productive for anybody. It saved everybody some time and aggravation if the client understood from the beginning that I was in control.

  "No," Chris said.

  "But you've been using for a while," I said, not putting much question into it.

  Chris looked at me, his eyes begging. He was clearly so spent, so sick, that it was hard not to feel a tug of sympathy. But pitying junkies was like crying over every death that took place on this earth: it would be a bottomless ocean of grief. Chris seemed genuinely humiliated, though, and didn't answer.

  "I'm in this room every day, Chris," I said. "I can tell a junkie from a day-tripper a mile away. You may have been a dilettante once, a 'recreational user,' but that time has passed. It's all over your face."

  Chris still just looking at me, resentment seeping in and mixing with the pleading in his eyes. "Why does it matter?" he said.

  "It matters because I'm going to try and get you help," I said. "Are you ready to be helped?"

  Chris appeared to really consider the question. "I don't know," he said softly, looking at the floor. "I hope so."

  I glanced down again at the scant file in my hand. "Says here they snagged you up on the street. You know why?" Phrasing the question so that it didn't assume guilt.

  Chris shrugged. "I think they must have been watching from a rooftop or something. They picked me up two blocks away, put me in a van with, like, six other people. After they caught a couple more they drove in—like, a whole bunch of them, cops, I mean—and rousted the dealers."

  I wrote a summary of this down, not for any good reason, just to be doing something, make Chris feel like he was talking to a lawyer. "Cops say anything to you about testifying against the dealers?"

  "No one said shit to me," Chris said. "Never even read me my rights. Isn't that illegal?"

  "They don't really need to Mirandize you if they don't ask you any questions," I said. "So why don't you tell me what happened? From the start."

  "Do you want me to tell the . . . you know, the bad stuff?"

  "Anything you tell me is confidential, of course," I replied. "And even at this stage, the more I know about what the other side is going to know, the more effective I can be."

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bsp; Chris nodded at this. He wanted to tell, I thought: often they wanted to tell. Sometimes to confess, sometimes to brag, sometimes a mixture of the two.

  "I was down at the projects at Avenue H and Ocean Avenue, looking to score. There's some guys I'm pretty regular with. Everything seemed, you know, business as usual, until I got back up to Flat-bush. Suddenly these two cops are right up behind me, digging in my pockets. They just came out of nowhere, far as I could tell."

  "So when you bought, that was right on the street?"

  "They deal out of the project, but they realize guys with my skin color don't want to go in there. That place is like a fortress or something. So they work it where you can order right on the street, even though they keep the shit in the Gardens. They take your order; then you go to this pay phone that doesn't work and pretend to make a call. Somebody else comes out with the shit."

  I resisted the urge to nod. I knew the playbook, but that had nothing, I told myself, to do with this. "And when the cops grabbed you, you said they reached into your pockets?"

  Chris nodded again, with some force now. "They were both yelling, saying how they knew I had it and where was it; all while they were grabbing at me. They didn't ask for permission to search or show a warrant or anything." The kid again looking to suggest he'd been the victim of some constitutional violation he knew about from TV.

  "You in school, Chris?"

  Chris nodded. "At Brooklyn College."

  "You get federal loans?"

  Chris nodded again.

  "That can be a problem," I said. "For next year, anyway."

  "What's going to happen to me?" Chris asked, his voice cracking slightly.

  "You got any kind of criminal record at all?"

  "You already asked me that."

  "Yeah, well," I said. "Some questions are worth repeating."

  Chris shook his head. "I'm not a troublemaker. I'm on a scholarship, taking five classes, working twenty hours a week sometimes to get by. I just need some help winding down sometimes, you know?"

  I had never spoken to a client about the events that had led me from graduating from one of the country's top law schools and making over two hundred thousand dollars a year as a corporate litigator at a big firm to making under fifty thousand doing rookie PD work. There was a moment here when I was tempted, thinking that hearing it would benefit Chris, but it passed.